26th January 2009

Struggling to lose weight. staying 89. something to 90. something. Need to break this. Don’t know how. Tired. Tired of being heartbroken, feeling lost, being too busy at work.

26th January 2009

Hmm, well I forgot to keep my wieghtloss journal, so here is a summary
2006 weight
87.5kg (06 August 2006 ) Lowest weight ever in about 10 years, was 110kg in 1999. 
2007 weight
97.0kg (01 September 2007) Put on 10kg in a year, marriage issues, financial issues 
95.6kg (08 September 2007)
96.0kg (15 September 2007)
96.0kg (22 September 2007)
94.5kg (06 October 2007)
96.0kg (13 [...]

26th January 2009

*sigh* well not much has changed. Love is so hard. He loves me and wants me back, but as much as I want it, I don’t feel its right. Something is not right enough for it. And it breaks my heart all over again.  Sometimes I am so consumed with emotions that I feel I [...]

1st January 2009

3am
I told him no today.  I just don’t feel it in my bones. But I have such deep feelings for him. If I knew it would be ok I would move heaven and earth to reconcile. But after what I have been through and all he has gone through, I just don’t know it would [...]