29th December 2008

Took the dogs for another walk and I also got up the courage to weigh myself – I have lost 0.5kg! Its weird how I find I can eat carbs and fat and still lose weight. I just can’t do it al the time.  If I do I put on weight. But if I have [...]

28th December 2008 He Wants To Reconcile

He wants to reconcile. Seriously. He cries and says I am the love of his life, that he misses his family, that he has lost everything that was important to him.  As you all know, I have always loved this man very deeply. But there is no doubt that he has hurt me beyond what [...]

27th December 2008

I’m feeling a bit lost. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.  I am unmotivated to do anything.  I feel …lost! I can;t belive I am saying that. But its how I feel. I don’t feel like getting out of bed. I don’t feel like doing anything. I wish I had my old life back [...]

20th December 2008

I am feeling horrible. I am angry and upset. I thought I was over this! Urgh! I was turning myself inside and out so thought I would write here.
I am so angry that I believed for 23 years this man loved me and would never betray me, let alone want other women instead of me. [...]

14th December 2008

So on the 6th of December I had my first date. It was very nice, he was a real gentleman and interesting.  We met at a seafood restuarant and later walked to place for coffee. The weather was nice so we sat outside for coffee. We got on really well but I knew in 30 [...]

6th December 2008 First date imminent

Tonight I have my first date ever.  I put it off for so long but decided to just go for it. I have never met him. About two months ago I joined a dating agency that only deals with professional people, does full screening and full match making services. I did that in a very [...]